Apocalypse

Not until the battle got over,did I realise I was fighting.
For a moment,I forgot I was fighting,
But moments passed in this,
All moments of battle!
Not until all died,I stopped fighting.
 Panting breathlessly, when I noticed all dead,I looked high up in the sky
With a sigh of momentary relief ,sweating profusely
And blood all over,i buried my weapon.
The battle maynot be over yet, the hardest part has certainly ended .
Having Exhausted all energy,I  cried in ecstasy
"It was meant for the purpose."
I was meant to fight and be dead.
Because I am death, I dont die.

Truth

Coldness with high temperatures,
Truth with my point of view
Numbness with pains
Are duality
They will end breaking shackles
Though truth is even not
Feeedom by pharell williams
Or debut by kygo.
That must also end.
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Lost my mind

I finally quit the job,sky couldnt be clearer
And sun couldnot be shinier than today
Unbothered by consequences,i quit it in this real world.
I couldnot happier
All this,i have done for my love
I may fail,i shallnot repent
I shall win and live life I love
I shall fail and  live life i dont love
But i shallnot live it, watching it happening
I decide,only i will be responsible for whatever happens.
Unbothered by all suggestions by all,
i quit life i dont want.
Held hostage by cupid,i have no control.
I want nothing or everything
I have left everything
I had,on other hand.
Unaware of consequences, I quit.
All fears have left me,all of sudden.
Blindly following my beloved,I have lost my senses,I have lost my mind.
But nothing seems to bother me.
With nothing in my hand,i give up everything that I have, to know what I can have.
I didnot know I could be the happiest with nothing.
Strange me and stranger are the laws of nature.



Ho jaane do fir, dekha jayega

way to infinity

Arthimetic fails to define start and end of infinity.calculus defines values till infinity in terms of Arthimetic numbers.we can feel infinity but we cant see it.all arthimetic rules fail at infinity.arthimetic loses all its powers to infinity.infinity therefore seems to be the most amazing concept. I wonder how did infinity ever come to existence when we cant define it.i also wonder if we could believe in infinity, what stops us to believe in God?

A letter to God

No I am NOT a drug addict,i can only not breathe without drugs.

I am even not nocturnal,but i cant sleep at nights. 

I am not a musician,though without it,i mightnot survive

I want to cry to make all universes cry,but i cant shed a single tear.

I want to know about worlds of worlds and their children,here i know nothing about myself.

I want to die daily while living but getting killed each day.

Trying to create connections in each and everything, my body is losing its coordination

In a desire to create impacts,i am totally ignorant of all effects.
Why?

single answer

tartaric acid,vishal sikka's 4.8 starrer blog,his designed design thinking training workshops, largest budh monolithic statue in Afghanistan, numerology,connection of numbers to alphabets and their combined effects on us,creation of chandrashekhar's limit consequently leading to black holes,neutrons,my association with different people in the world and further their association to all kind of stuff available and my all time favourite connection of spirituality with science are keeping me up this dark, stormy,rainy night. I dont know why am  i seeking single answer for all the singular questions that i have, a single connection to everything churning around in my mind.i am looking for a single answer to all infinite questions in my mind.i can no longer breathe properly.all this maundering has shut down my brain and i am roaming on streets to seek a sigh of relief, to get some sleep. I have no idea whether i shall ever succeed to get my answer,but hope is a bitch.in a hope, i end.